it's one of those days again today
when i just wish i was back home,
permanently.
chatting with lisa after the longest time ever
recharged me,
and made me feel loved,
made me feel that home isn't all so far away.
the girls, the boys, all my loves...
chatting with a little bit of everyone recently
makes me feel whole again.
i hate this place,
i really really do.
i just want to run away,
run back home.
damn it,
can 46 days be any looooongerrr???
i canNOT wait to go home,
to be with my girls
and my boys,
and feel at home.
'cos here i just feel so empty
and the worst part is,
i have no where to run to.
i need you people,
all my loves,
please keep me grounded and strong.
i need to make it through the rain.
but i can't do it on my own.
i love you all,
and you're always always always in my heart.
never ever forget that, please.
i'm not jealous, no i'm not
i just want everything she's got
you look at her so amazed
i remember way back when
you used to look at me that way
tell me what makes her so much better than me
what makes her just everything that i can never be
what makes her your every dream and fantasy
because i can remember when it was me
that made you smile
that made you laugh
that made you happier than you have ever been
that was your world
your perfect girl
nothing about me has changed
that's why i'm here wondering
it's just another one of those stoopid days...
on a happier note,
HAPPY BLESSED TWENTIETH
my dearest beloved gi.
our crazy memories still make me laugh,
even though i'm half way around the world from you.
i love you dear.