i shouldn't love you
but i want to
i just can't turn away
i shouldn't see you
but i can't move
i can't look away
and i don't know how to be fine when i'm not
'cos i don't know how to make the feelings stop
just so you know
this feeling's taking control
of me and i can't help it
i won't sit around
i can't let her win now
thought you should know
i've tried my best to let go
of you but i don't want to
i just got to say it all before i go
just so you know
it's getting hard to
be around you
there's so much i can't say
do you want me to hide the feelings
and look the other way
this emptiness is killing me
i'm wondering why i've waited so long
looking back i realize
it was always there
just never spoken
i'm waiting here
been waiting here.

being home this time
has been amazing.
only this time,
i have to leave again.
and i'm leaving real soon,
and the feeling's not quite so fantastic.
what's all the fun going to become?
what's all the love going to do?
what's all the laughs going to turn into?
what's all the memories made going to be?
i'll miss everyone.

and this time,
i realised that it's for good.
i'm going to be stuck
in the same position
i am right now,
as i've been in
for the past three years.
some things don't change.
problem is,
some things never will.
just so you know.

happy new year 2008.
may this year be a blessed one
for you and your family.
joy, happiness, smiles and laughter.