Sunday, May 27, 2007
2:14 PMthe hot&happening a106 gang
kept me alive yesterday.
lisa, benita, michelle, safiah,
adrian, muslim and jeremy.
you all made me so so happy.
i'm going to miss laughing my heart's out,
craniuming and mother teresa and ricky martin,
pushing each other into the water
and being happy.
i'm so going to miss you all.
we all look so happy in the photos we took.
thanks for yesterday my loves.
hot&happening, it says it all.
water, beach, sand and smiles galore.
cranium at the airport.
colourful, just the way they paint my life. 
favourite kemsters that make me smile.
i'm definitely going to miss all of you, my angels.
Saturday, May 26, 2007
5:11 AMwhat do you do when everything
may just be the last time you're doing it?
rub-a-dub was good fun though.
more more more 4am fun.
i'm so going to miss
each and every one of you.
...and life goes on...
Friday, May 25, 2007
12:03 AMthis could be the last time.
the last time i do
everything with everyone.
it's almost as if my life ends
in one month and i have
exactly one month to do
everything i wanna do.
and i'm so sick of crying.
so sick of crying when
you're not here with me.
i don't know what to do anymore.
i don't know what to expect.
will you remember me still?
this is for my h&p friend, cheps:
when the day is long and
the night is yours alone
when you're sure you've had
enough of this life
well, hang on
don't let yourself go
everybody cries and
everybody hurts sometimes.
remember you still have us.
i'll miss you all.
)':
Wednesday, May 23, 2007
1:39 AMi just wanna run away from home
and never ever turn back.
and i wish you were here
to be my shoulder to cry on.
that's what hurts the most;
not having you here
when i need you the most.
i never knew i needed you so bad.
i miss you.
Monday, May 21, 2007
3:16 PMwhatever happened to a dream,
my dream, the dream.
why must so damn much
be compromised just for
something that means alot?
there's too much to weigh
and i'm so sick of growing up. i just wanna stay nineteen forever,
cycle with gi all day,
nasi briyani with 4a,
shop with chris,
blade with the slackers,
emosiaokao with my good stuffs,
karaoke with a106,
study (or otherwise) with zong,
train with my st hilda's teammates,
have playground talks with my bestest,
bet soccer with my best buds,
supper with the kemsters,
run around squirting water at people in mj,
mahjong with the boys
and all the things that keep me alive.
if only i could bring all of you
with me to switzerland.
now part of me wishes i get rejected
so i can stay in singapore.
and treasure all your friendships for good.
they were right:
be careful what you wish for.
it may just come true.
fuck.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
12:45 AMyou know i'd be with you
if there was any way i ever could
you know i wouldn't miss your touch
if i didn't want it so much
i dont want to go but i should
you know it wouldn't hurt so bad
if it didn't feel so good
sounds like it should be easy
but it's just so hard
we've got to come to our senses
before we go too far
i want you but i can't have you
so sad so true
you got to be careful what you wish for
because this could never come true
i can't help seeing how it could be
i close my eyes and you're here next to me
i'm helplessly watching
i start to fade and love slip away.
that's everything i wanna say to you.
maybe they're right,
sometimes, letting go makes you stronger.
so now i'm got to put an end
to what i've been dying to start.
i'm letting go.
for good.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
3:04 AMi'm stronger than this
enough is enough
no more walking around
with my head down
i'm so over being blue
and crying over you
i'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
and your memory
and how every song reminds me
of what used to be
that's the reason why
i'm so sick of love songs
so tired of tears
so done with wishing you were still here
i'm so sick of love songs
so sad and slow
leave me alone
stupid love songs
don't make me think about his smile
i'm letting go
i'm turning off the radio.
i'm letting go.
for you, for me, for us.
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
2:14 AMyou used to talk to me like
i was the only one around
you used to lean on me like
the only other choice was falling down
you used to walk with me like
we had nowhere we needed to go
nice and slow, to no place in particular
we used to have this figured out
we used to breathe without a doubt
when nights were clear
you were the first star that i'd see
we used to have this under control
we never thought
we used to know
at least there's you, and at least there's me
can we get this back?
i used to reach for you when
i got lost along the way
i used to listen
you always had just the right thing to say
i used to follow you
never really cared where we would go
fast or slow, to anywhere at all
i look around me
and i want you to be there
'cos i miss the things that we shared
look around you
it's empty, and you're sad
'cos you miss the love that we had.
i was the only one around
you used to lean on me like
the only other choice was falling down
you used to walk with me like
we had nowhere we needed to go
nice and slow, to no place in particular
we used to have this figured out
we used to breathe without a doubt
when nights were clear
you were the first star that i'd see
we used to have this under control
we never thought
we used to know
at least there's you, and at least there's me
can we get this back?
i used to reach for you when
i got lost along the way
i used to listen
you always had just the right thing to say
i used to follow you
never really cared where we would go
fast or slow, to anywhere at all
i look around me
and i want you to be there
'cos i miss the things that we shared
look around you
it's empty, and you're sad
'cos you miss the love that we had.
don't hold on to the past?
well, that's too much to ask.
'cos it will never go away
and i can't say goodbye to yesterday.
can we get this back to how it used to be?i live for ten thirty every night.
Thursday, May 03, 2007
2:29 AMthe sky has lost it's colour
the sun has turned to grey
at least that's how it feels to me
whenever you're away
i crawl up in the corner
as i watch the minutes pass
each one brings me closer to
the time when you'll be back
you're coming back, right?
i can't take the distance
i can't take the miles
i can't take the time
until the next time i see you smile
i can't take the distance
and i'm not ashamed
that i can't take a breath
without saying your name
i can brave a hurricane
and still be standing tall
when all the dust has settled down
but i can't take the distance
i still believe in feelings
but sometimes i feel too much
i make believe you're close to me
but it ain't close enough
not nearly close enough. 17 hours away from you.
i can't take the distance.
'cos all i do is make believe
you're right here next to me. i'm counting down the days
until the next time i see you smile.
the sun has turned to grey
at least that's how it feels to me
whenever you're away
i crawl up in the corner
as i watch the minutes pass
each one brings me closer to
the time when you'll be back
you're coming back, right?
i can't take the distance
i can't take the miles
i can't take the time
until the next time i see you smile
i can't take the distance
and i'm not ashamed
that i can't take a breath
without saying your name
i can brave a hurricane
and still be standing tall
when all the dust has settled down
but i can't take the distance
i still believe in feelings
but sometimes i feel too much
i make believe you're close to me
but it ain't close enough
not nearly close enough. 17 hours away from you.
i can't take the distance.
'cos all i do is make believe
you're right here next to me. i'm counting down the days
until the next time i see you smile.
2:29 AM
you said goodbye
i fell apart
i fell from "all we had" to
"i never knew i needed you so bad"
"you need to let me go"
i know, you told me so
i've been through hell
trying to break the spell
why did i ever let you slip away
can't stand another day without you
without the feeling i once knew
i cry silently
i cry inside of me
i cry 'cos you're not here with me
'cos i'm lonely as can be
i cry hopelessly
'cos i know i'll never
breathe your love again
if you could see me now
you would know just how hard i try
not to wonder why
i wish i could believe
in something new
please somebody tell me it's not true
that i'll never be over you
if i could have you back tomorrow
if i could lose the pain and sorrow
i would do just anything to make you see.i'm so empty right now
i just wanna lay down and die.
i cry and you don't even know
the tears that i'm crying out
are for you to be with me.i miss you.