//* sheer happiness in the million little things.

`never give up on the things
that make you smile.

((:

herFRIENDS.
michelle
lisa
melissa
jkhoo
tanjiali
safiah
azlyn
andi
muslim
mygirls'shop
my friendster

herTHOUGHTS.
...before we get too old...

in open fields of wild flowers
she breathes the air and flies away
she thanks her jesus
for the daises and the roses
in no simple language
someday she'll understand
the meaning of it all
he's more than the laughter
or the stars in the heavens
as close a heartbeat
or a song on her lips
someday she'll trust him
and learn how to see him
someday he'll call her
and she will come running
and fall in his arms
and the tears will fall down and she'll pray
i want to fall in love with you.

jesus take the wheel
take it from my hands
'cos i can't do this on my own
i'm letting go
so give me one more chance
save me from this road i'm on
jesus take the wheel.

when you want to give up
and your heart's about to break
remember that you're perfect
god makes no mistakes.

we're running, keep holding my hand
so we don't get separated
be the one i need
be the one i trust most
don't stop inspiring me.

lately i've been down upon my knees
not looking for a miracle
just a reason to believe.

i'm feeling nervous
trying to be so perfect
'cos i know you're worth it.

you always want what you can't have
but i've got to try.

i've finally found that something
worth reaching for
i'm not here to say i'm sorry
i'm not here to lie to you
i'm here to say i'm ready
that i've finally thought it through
i'm not here to let your love go
i'm not giving up, oh no
i'm here to win your heart and soul
that's my goal
please don't go
you know that i need you
i can't breathe without you
live without you
be without you.

on my knees, i'll ask
last chance for one last dance
'cos with you, i'd withstand
all of hell to hold your hand
i'd give it all
i'd give for us
give anything but i won't give up.

if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world?
i don't quite know
how to say
how i feel
those three words
are said too much
they're not enough.

you can call me selfish
but all i want is your love
you can call me hopeless
'cos i'm hopelessly in love
you can call me unperfect
but who's perfect?
tell me what do i got to do
to prove that i'm the only one for you.

i don't believe that anybody
feels the way i do about you now
there are many things that
i would like to say to you
but i don't know how.

you know i'm the one that you can talk to
sometimes you tell me things
that i don't want to know
i just want to hold you
you say exactly how you feel about her
i wonder could you ever think of me that way.

you and i walk beside each other
day after day
but there's so much inside me
i never get to say.

i want to know that
you will catch me when i fall.

i saw you smile
and my mind could not erase
the beauty of your face
just for a while
won't you let me shelter you
i don't know how to stop feeling this way
hold on to the night
hold on to the memory
i wish that i could give you something more
that i could be yours.

as we go on, we remember
all the times we had together
and as our lives change
come whatever
we will still be
friends forever.

when there are lines upon my face
from a lifetime of smiles
and when the time comes to embrace
for one long last while
we can laugh about how time really flies
we won't say goodbye
'cos true love never dies
and my only prayer is that you'll realise
you'll always be beautiful in my eyes.

do you ever think of me
do i ever cross your mind
do you ever ask yourself
what's she doing tonight?

gather moments while you may
collect the dreams you dream today
remember, will you remember
the times of your life.

sometimes i feel like crying
lay down and dying
that's when i need you.

there's no difference
between the tear drops and the rain.

and if i could hold on
through the tears and the laughter
would it be beautiful
or just a beautiful disaster.

(to her*)
fly me up to where you are
beyond the distant star
i wish upon tonight
to see you smile
if only for awhile
to know you're there
a breath away's not far
to where you are.

when i'm sitting all alone in my room
everything reminds me of you.

so come on baby let me be the girl
that you can count on to rock your world.

do you realise that you have
the most beautiful things
do you realise that
happiness makes you cry.

and this is my beautiful life
only thing's certain is everything changes
the lows and the highs
and all those goodbyes
as hard as it gets i know it's still amazing
to be alive
it's a beautiful life. :)

Sunday, April 29, 2007

11:40 PM

i feel so empty.

i wish you were here.

this hurts.

remember me this way//*

Saturday, April 28, 2007

4:25 PM

i can't take this anymore.

i don't know what to do.

i don't know how to do it.

and i don't know

how much longer i can take this.

it's hurting me.

fuck life, fuck love, really.

remember me this way//*

Friday, April 27, 2007

1:15 AM

this is to you.

for all the times you stood by me,

you're the one who saw me through

through it all.

thank you for being there for me.

now you're leaving.

remember me

'cos i will still be here

as long as you hold me

in your memory

'cos we're a picture in my mind

and when i want to find you

i just close my eyes

so don't say goodbye

'cos you'll never be that far from me

and when we’re not together
i will remember you

and all of the things

that we've gone through.

sometimes i love you

sometimes i don't

but i never ever,

never want to let you go

we've come so far

sometimes i can't believe

but i wouldn't change a thing

it's the little things that keep me holding on.

remember,

sing out this song

and i'll be there by your side.

we'll always be best friends,

come what may.

there's no place that far.

just don't forget to remember me.

i'll be missing you

and loving you.

always and forever.

remember me this way//*

Thursday, April 26, 2007

3:42 PM

staring right back in the face
a memory can't be erased
i know because i tried
start to feel the emptiness
and everything i'm gonna miss
i know that i can't hide.

and we have to pretend

that it didn't even happen.

what did it even mean to you?

remember me this way//*

12:52 AM

i'd withstand all of hell

to hold your hand

and have you lying next to me.

...if i could freeze a moment in time.

remember me this way//*

Sunday, April 22, 2007

1:23 AM

i've decided.

i need to let go.

do or die.

period.

remember me this way//*

Saturday, April 21, 2007

7:48 PM

have you ever felt that

some things are yours to keep.

some things you do with your friends

make it unique to the friendship you share.

like how some things are uniquely yours.

and some things make you

remember this friendship.

remember the special relationship

that you share with each other.

'cos it's yours and yours only.

some activities you don't share

with your other friends.

that's what makes a

particular friendship special.

'cos you have that little something.

a little memory that once

made you that happiest person alive.

the smiles, the laughs, the tears.

that memory of the things we did.

and you just ripped it out of my heart

and shared it with someone else.

i was right.

nothing lasts forever.

and i'm not afraid to say

that i'm doubting you now.

'cos i know i'm right to doubt.

you know it's not going to last forever.

thanks for taking ~~our~~ my little secret memory

and telling the whole world.

call me selfish,
but there are a few little things
that keep me holding on
in this crazy world.
that was one of it.
thanks.

.sdratsaberasyug

i can't believe they were all right about you.

remember me this way//*

Thursday, April 19, 2007

11:22 PM

sometimes it's hard

you don't want to look

over your shoulder

'cos you don't want to remember

where you've been

there'll come a time you'd die

if you could only hold him

i know that's where i am

so listen with all your heart

hold it inside forever

you may find all your dreams

have already come true

look inside and

find the part that's leading you

that's the beat of your heart

no one can tell you how to get there

it's a road you take

all by yourself.

this is going to be

a long and lonely journey.

and it's gonna be tough.

but i'm gonna do it.

i'm gonna try, at least.

maybe it's my escape.

from everything that's making me

cry my heart out everytime.

and that includes you.

maybe this will help me let go.

maybe, just maybe.

i don't know how much

this means to me now.

i don't know how much

i mean to you now.

remember me this way//*

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

1:30 AM

i can't believe what i just gave away
now i can't take it back
i don't wanna get lost
i don't wanna live my life without you

how am i supposed to leave you now?

and he's out of my reach forever

and just a week ago he lied next to me

it's so ironic how i had to lose

just to see that i failed to love you

i don't wanna forget you

i don't even wanna try

how am i supposed to walk on by?

spend all your time waiting

for that second chance

for a break that would make it okay

there's always some reason

to feel not good enough

and it's hard at the end of the day.

that's everything i wanna say to you.

besides i wanna grow old with you.

remember me this way//*

Friday, April 13, 2007

9:55 PM

i didn't mean to let you down

you have to believe it

i don't know what went through my mind

but now i can see

that i waited too long

to tell you how much it matters

just to be right here with you

but i couldn't think of anything better

i should have told you so

open your heart

won't you give me a second chance

and i'll be here forever

open your heart

let me show you how much i care

and i will make you understand

if you open your heart

to love me once again

i'll try to make it up to you

i want you to know

i swear that i'll be true

and never let go

we could relive this pain and sorrow

but we better do it in time

start over here and save tomorrow

i wanna make you mine.

so i might've made a few mistakes

but that was back when you would smile

and we would go everywhere

but we ain't been there for awhile

and this i know, there's a place that we can go

a place where i can finally let you know

'cos i'm the one that loves you lately

you and me, we got this great thing

we're the only ones that's around

i hope you find whatever you've been looking for

just remember where you're from and who you are

'cos there's a thousand lights

that'll make you feel brand new

but if you ever lose your way

i'll leave one on for you.

if you open your heart

love me once again.

god i need to fcuking let go.

remember me this way//*

Thursday, April 12, 2007

2:41 AM

this time, this place

misused, mistakes
too long, too late

who was i to make you wait

just one chance, just one breath

just in case there's just one left

'cos you know that i love you

i have loved you all along

and i miss you

been far away for far too long

i keep dreaming

you'll be with me and you'll never go

stop breathing if i don't see you anymore

on my knees, i'll ask

last chance for one last dance

'cos with you, i'd withstand

all of hell to hold your hand

i'd give it all, i'd give for us

give anything but i won't give up.

so i figured some people

can keep me alive.

thank you for the eleventh of april.

you kept me alive for one more day

in this crazy world.

i love you,

i have loved you all along.

remember me this way//*

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

3:12 AM

maybe his love will come back someday

only heaven knows

and maybe our hearts will find a way

only heaven knows

and all i can do is hope and pray

'cos heaven knows.

no more waiting

no more aching

no more fighting

no more trying...

...i wish i was strong enough.

i gave it away.

now who am i to blame anyone

besides myself?

i got to be strong and move on.

but what if i don't want to?

remember me this way//*

Saturday, April 07, 2007

4:45 AM

so i had a nightmare.

two weeks.

possibly the worst nightmare.

point is, i'm back.

tell me god, what does this mean?

tell me god, why is all this happening?

tell me god, what's real and what's not?

tell me god, what life's gonna be like?

tell me god, why i didn't see this earlier?

tell me god, why i have all this regrets?

tell me god, why i couldn't feel this sooner?

tell me god, why it didn't hit me then?

tell me god, why am i the one to give it all?

tell me god, why i can't give it up?

tell me god, what happens from here?

tell me god, what's love like?

tell me god, what's love lost?

tell me god, why, why, why?

tell me god, should i hold on or let go?

tell me god, what i should do.

we have our highs and lows

something everybody knows

doesn't mean that we run away

we work through our mistakes

sometimes i love you

sometimes i don't

but i never ever, never want to let you go

the road's not easy

but the feeling's strong

it's the little things that keep me holding on

of all the crazy things in life that's been

it's you and me

we've come so far

sometimes i can't believe

but i wouldn't change a thing.

some people think it's holding on

that makes one strong

sometimes it's letting go.

god help me please, if that's your plan.

ican'tseemtodoitalone.

remember me this way//*

theGIRL.
vanessa
hotelier
twenty-one
11 april
aries
ecole hôtelière de lausanne

currently in: singapore

sheLOVES.
god
mjc.05a106
family
netball
friends
sports
kemsters
goodstuffs
shss.netballers
shss.4a'04
orange
purple
lime green
mini coopers
fireworks
sunsets
the beach
mahjong
london cabs
passion
life

thePAST.
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
August 2008
November 2008
December 2008

herDREAMS.
#1 ~~ecole hôtelière de lausanne.~~
#2 custody.
#3 ~~play division one netball.~~
#4 hotel manager.
#5 a healed knee.
#6 ~~sweet friends.~~
#7 ~~good grades.~~
#8 happy family.
#9 ~~driving license.~~
#10 speak fluent french.
#11 ~~mini~~ cooper.
#12 ~~nice watch.~~
#13 ~~functioning computer.~~
#14 drive to thailand.
#15 decorate my room.
#16 travel the world.
#17 ~~sweet memories.~~
#18 ~~true love.~~

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