Saturday, September 30, 2006
1:27 AMwe've got to believe that
there's a reason we're here
'cos these are the days worth living
these are the years we're given
and these are the moments
these are the times
let's make the best out of our lives.
press on.
and above all,
trust in the big guy up there.
he will see us through.
(:
Monday, September 25, 2006
11:15 PMi'm living for the only thing i know
i'm running and not quite sure where to go
i don't know what i'm diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you
there's nothing else to lose
nothing else to find
there's nothing in the world
that could change my mind
i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you.
...despite the screaming,
yelling, shouting and the arguing...
Saturday, September 23, 2006
10:08 PMyou're out of your mind
thinking you were someone special
time has shown and now i know
how wrong i have been.
always feeling
that you're using me
confusing me
two-timing me.
i can't remember
how long has it been
open your eyes
open your eyes
boy you trouble me
expensive lies
but you're playing for free
i gave you what you want
what you need
my time is wasting
but for you it's a breeze.
where do i go, what do i do
when everywhere i turn
when everywhere i turn
it just reminds me of you
now that it's clear
there are no more tears
for me to cry
now it's time that i said
my last goodbye
i hope you're happy
with the choices you've made
i hope you're regretting
letting me go
now it's time to say goodbye
i've got no more tears to cry.
and i've decided.
you are worthless.
disgusting.
and i wonder how
it ever happened.
the memories may be sweet,
but you disgust me.
there are so many
people out there
who keep that smile
on my face,
so many lovely blessings
from the big guy up there.
friends are forever,
boys are whatever.
i'm thankful for the
loves in my life,
those who keep me going
and those who mean
the world to me.
my girls (the good stuff gang -
bolzie, lisa, mic and saf),
zong and my darling 05a106.
i am beginning to learn
that it is the sweet, simple things
of life which are the
real ones after all.
to my loves, thanks
for being the magic and splendor
in my life,
with love.
happy moments, praise god.
difficult moments, seek god.
quiet moments, worship god.
painful moments, trust god.
every moment, thank god.
he's amazing.
and he's going to pull me through.
trust and faith.
i know i'm going to make it,
with him.
(:
obstacles are those frightful things
you see when you take
your eyes off your goal.
i'm going to switzerland people.
come monday,
i'm going to mug like
no tomorrow, really.
i'm going to prove
some people wrong.
that I CAN DO IT.
and i don't need you.
i'm not going to let
my friends, my loves
and my family down.
watch me.
cheahhh. macam hero!
HAHAHA!
(:
from monday,
thirty eight days.
it's the final lap.
and we're going to run it well.
finish it well.
and emerge victorious.
'cos god will make us
the head and not the tail,
above and not beneath.
amen!
press on people.
we're in this sheat together.
if god brings you to it,
he'll definitely bring you through it.
Monday, September 18, 2006
7:48 PMfall
just like the rain washes it all
if the tears will help you to heal
all that is real
all that is wrong
let 'em fall baby fall.emo-ing with bolzie's mp3
is... both good and bad stuff.
confused thoughts.
can i be your memory?
oh wells.
i'm reminiscing.
sometimes the memory
is more lovely.
when people change
and feelings change
and you become disgusted
at what you see
and how things are now.
it's okay, it's alright.
the loves in my life
still keep that smile on
and keep me going through it all.
and i love bolzie.
she's following me to switzerland
for my interview if i make it to lausanne.
omg.
i so love that darling.
you better keep your promise!
foldoverrr!
hahahaha!
and i love my good stuffs too.switzerland...
i can so smell it,
taste it, see it, feel it
coming to life.
my dream.
it's the magic of risking everything
for a dream that nobody sees but you.
i'm not going to let you down.
to hear his voice
at the end of a hectic day.
i couldn't ask for more.
p.dots makes me a happy girl.
thank you, for the simplest things.
(:
you're the one
you set me free
when you're close to me
all that i do
is think about a way
to make you stay with me
you know the way to my heart.
Sunday, September 17, 2006
12:00 AMp.dots keeps me happy. :)
Saturday, September 16, 2006
10:12 PMeverything changes
but beauty remains
something so tender
i can't explain
well, i may be dreaming,
but till i awake
can't we make this dream last forever?
and i'll cherish all the love we shared.love that is real
but in disguise
i don't know how to
stop feeling this way
everytime i look into your eyes
i'm helplessly aware
that the someone i've been
searching for is right there.
9:56 PM
you and i walk beside
each other day after day
but there's so much inside me
i never get to say.i'm motivated.
each other day after day
but there's so much inside me
i never get to say.i'm motivated.
well, sort of anyways.
and i'm happy.
i know i'm going to make it.
i know i'm going to switzerland.
watch me.
i'm going to make it.
for all those who care.
this is for you.
((:
thanks to all my lovelies
who have motivated me:
my good stuff gang
(bolzie, lisa, mic and saf),
zong, my darling a106,
yanqing and friends.
thanks for spurring me on.
you have no idea how much
you have inspired me.
to each and every one of you,
thanks, with much love.
well, it's all so overrated
in not saying how you feel
so you end up watching chances fade
and wondering what's real.
Thursday, September 14, 2006
10:24 PMduring this trying prelim period
that only signals one thing:
the a's are coming,
and coming reeeeaaallll fast,
it's nice to know that
there are those who care.
a special shoutout to my
good stuff gang!
bolzie, lisa, mic and saf!
you all are my good stuff buddies.
and only you four make up good stuff.
always in my heart,
you all are L-O-V-E!
thanks for being my source of smiles
during this very trying, stressful,
and even painful period of time.
pst pst to all of you.
my loves.
to mr hamsome,
hang in there.
it's going to be over in twenty two days.
twenty two days to put in your 110%.
i know you can do it.
i just know it.
come on.
it's the final lap.
don't give up till it's over.
i believe in you.
oh. and thanks for being my inspiration.
thanks for being a silent encourager
through it all.
it means so much.
together, we can do it.
(:
to all j1s and j2s,
press on.
if god brings you to it,
he'll definitely bring you through it.
amen.
running, running as fast as we can
i really hope we make it
we're running, keep holding my hand
so we don't get separated.
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
11:19 PMdo the world a favour and light a candle
to help stop child prostitution
and pornography on the internet.
help these children.
they don't want your money.
they want your support.
light a candle.
please.
http://www.lightamillioncandles.com
9:46 PM
this may never start
we could fall apart
and i'd be your memory
lost your sense of fear
feelings insincere
can i be your memory?if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world?
i don't quite know how
to say how i feel
those three words
are said too much
they're not enoughso take a step back and see the little people
they may be young but they're the ones
that make the big people big
so listen, as they whisper
now i'm standing on the corner
of the world's gone home
nobody's changed, nobody's been saved
and i'm feeling cold and alone
i guess i'm lucky, i smile a lot
but sometimes i wish for more.
so the prelims have started.
and that means that the a's
are inching closer each day.
that's not good stuff.
been rather troubled lately.
about alot of things.
my mind's a complicated thing
that apparently does not
want to function during major exams.
damnnn.
things can't be worse now, can it?
the future seems so scary
from where i am right now.
and while a part of me
wants to go all out and
achieve my dream,
another part knows that
i might only be disappointing
myself for dreaming too high.
sigh.
i wish i had discipline.
god give me strength.
yeah, maybe i'm lucky.
i smile alot.
but i hope this smile will last
even on the day i collect
my a's results.
sigh.
i don't even dare think about it.
i need to study.
i need to wake up the idea.
but some things just inevitably
cross your mind once in a while.
and some stay longer than others.
but some put smiles on your faces too.
beautiful.
(:
he's the reason i'm smiling here today.
Saturday, September 09, 2006
11:16 PMmugging at the airport
the past few days have been
fun, fun, and more fun!
just doesn't seem like we're
sitting for our
big fat a's in less than
SEVEN WEEKS time.
(i don't even dare count
the hours to the prelims!)
but fun is a good stress-reliever.
but in our case,
huh? what stress?
HAHAHA! and after missing lisa for
the loooongest time,
she came yesterday to join us for lunch.
and she's my good stuff man.
we did alot of work,
giving good stuff therapeutic sessions
to our lovely friends
mic, az and andi (not saf).
if you want lisa and i
to share with you good stuff,
you can always contact us and
we will be glad to extend our service
at a minimal fee of two dollars.
and we're good stuff, really.
mic, az and andi can testify.
saf, shuddup. and this is just a footnote
that you should NEVER trust saf,
'cos all she does is LIE.
first, lying about us being con artists
(which, by the way, you all should NOT believe)
and today, she lied about coming late.
tsk.
so the bottom line is,
whatever she says,
and whatever she posts in her dumb blog,
should NEVER be trusted.
really.
ask lisa.
she my good stuff sista.
((:
a tribute to today,
and the fact that saf's a bitch.
if you can't read the tiny (and ugly)
handwriting on saf's pathetic
sheet of paper, it's for your own good, really.
i still think lisa's the best.
and DON'T listen to saf.
you'll thank me, really. :)
saf's a bitch. that's all you need to see. :)
just look at her. loser to the merry know.
and just in case you all didn't get
to see the loserfied dumbass
up close enough,
this is her, looking like her
usual unglam self.
oh, what's new?
just for the record,
saf's a bitch,
and i rock. (:
and i babysitted sabrina today.
mic's little cousin.
ms loh's eyes, really.
adorable. :)
always the best for the last.
lisa my good stuff!
LET'S SUE SAF!
you my good stuff sista.
cheers to more therapeutic sessions
that are good stuff to the world.
you my good stuff.
let's get to paris soon.
you bring your hubs,
i bring p.dots.
alamak.
this is good stuff.
(unlike saf).
THROW HER INTO JAIL
WITH HER ILLEGAL SEMBAWANG
CONSTRUCTION WORKER NOW!
i like p.dots. ((:
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
12:01 AMand i hope that you are having
the time of your life,
but think twice,
that's my only advice.
come on now, who do you, who do you,
who do you, who do you think you are?
hahaha! bless your soul!
you really think you're in control?!
saf introed me to this.
good stuff.
and true to the merry
cherry strawberry too!
HAHAHA!
bless your soul.
really.
oh wells.
studying today was enlightening.
although my plan to study econs
was disrupted by khai's arrival.
but teaching khai math is...
...motivating, for me.
hahaha.
thanks to lisa's help
through the phone too.
she's really a math whiz.
weirdo.
HAHAHA!
okayyy. so she's going to kill me.
this is not good stuff.
but she my bestest ah.
whoots! ((:
mic is love too.
airport, parkway, her house.
talked about everything
under the moon.
talking to her is
just so refreshing.
it's nice.
and she is much love.
i'm going to miss jc life.
damn it.
but the darned a's
are freaking damn scary.
and i'm not doing anything about it.
even my year one friends
are scaring me.
that's bad stuff.
sigh. okay okay.
time to buck up.
need to wake up the idea.
and i'm half way there,
i think.
there's so much more to life.
and god's just so wonderful.
aaaah.
amazing.
beautiful.
thank you god, for today, again.
:)
Sunday, September 03, 2006
12:02 AMjesus take the wheel
take it from my hands
'cos i can't do this on my own
i'm letting go
so give me one more chance
save me from this road i'm on
jesus take the wheel.
you're all i need,
the strength, the guidance,
the refuge, the comfort,
the faith and the love.
you are everything to me.
and i can't face this alone.
i know i can't.
and i need you.
take the wheel.
i'm all yours.
thank you lord,
for today,
for both the good and the bad.
you are wonderful.
((: