//* sheer happiness in the million little things.

`never give up on the things
that make you smile.

((:

herFRIENDS.
michelle
lisa
melissa
jkhoo
tanjiali
safiah
azlyn
andi
muslim
mygirls'shop
my friendster

herTHOUGHTS.
...before we get too old...

in open fields of wild flowers
she breathes the air and flies away
she thanks her jesus
for the daises and the roses
in no simple language
someday she'll understand
the meaning of it all
he's more than the laughter
or the stars in the heavens
as close a heartbeat
or a song on her lips
someday she'll trust him
and learn how to see him
someday he'll call her
and she will come running
and fall in his arms
and the tears will fall down and she'll pray
i want to fall in love with you.

jesus take the wheel
take it from my hands
'cos i can't do this on my own
i'm letting go
so give me one more chance
save me from this road i'm on
jesus take the wheel.

when you want to give up
and your heart's about to break
remember that you're perfect
god makes no mistakes.

we're running, keep holding my hand
so we don't get separated
be the one i need
be the one i trust most
don't stop inspiring me.

lately i've been down upon my knees
not looking for a miracle
just a reason to believe.

i'm feeling nervous
trying to be so perfect
'cos i know you're worth it.

you always want what you can't have
but i've got to try.

i've finally found that something
worth reaching for
i'm not here to say i'm sorry
i'm not here to lie to you
i'm here to say i'm ready
that i've finally thought it through
i'm not here to let your love go
i'm not giving up, oh no
i'm here to win your heart and soul
that's my goal
please don't go
you know that i need you
i can't breathe without you
live without you
be without you.

on my knees, i'll ask
last chance for one last dance
'cos with you, i'd withstand
all of hell to hold your hand
i'd give it all
i'd give for us
give anything but i won't give up.

if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world?
i don't quite know
how to say
how i feel
those three words
are said too much
they're not enough.

you can call me selfish
but all i want is your love
you can call me hopeless
'cos i'm hopelessly in love
you can call me unperfect
but who's perfect?
tell me what do i got to do
to prove that i'm the only one for you.

i don't believe that anybody
feels the way i do about you now
there are many things that
i would like to say to you
but i don't know how.

you know i'm the one that you can talk to
sometimes you tell me things
that i don't want to know
i just want to hold you
you say exactly how you feel about her
i wonder could you ever think of me that way.

you and i walk beside each other
day after day
but there's so much inside me
i never get to say.

i want to know that
you will catch me when i fall.

i saw you smile
and my mind could not erase
the beauty of your face
just for a while
won't you let me shelter you
i don't know how to stop feeling this way
hold on to the night
hold on to the memory
i wish that i could give you something more
that i could be yours.

as we go on, we remember
all the times we had together
and as our lives change
come whatever
we will still be
friends forever.

when there are lines upon my face
from a lifetime of smiles
and when the time comes to embrace
for one long last while
we can laugh about how time really flies
we won't say goodbye
'cos true love never dies
and my only prayer is that you'll realise
you'll always be beautiful in my eyes.

do you ever think of me
do i ever cross your mind
do you ever ask yourself
what's she doing tonight?

gather moments while you may
collect the dreams you dream today
remember, will you remember
the times of your life.

sometimes i feel like crying
lay down and dying
that's when i need you.

there's no difference
between the tear drops and the rain.

and if i could hold on
through the tears and the laughter
would it be beautiful
or just a beautiful disaster.

(to her*)
fly me up to where you are
beyond the distant star
i wish upon tonight
to see you smile
if only for awhile
to know you're there
a breath away's not far
to where you are.

when i'm sitting all alone in my room
everything reminds me of you.

so come on baby let me be the girl
that you can count on to rock your world.

do you realise that you have
the most beautiful things
do you realise that
happiness makes you cry.

and this is my beautiful life
only thing's certain is everything changes
the lows and the highs
and all those goodbyes
as hard as it gets i know it's still amazing
to be alive
it's a beautiful life. :)

Tuesday, August 22, 2006

9:24 PM

maybe we're all different

but we're still the same

we all got the blood of eden

running through our veins

i know sometimes it's hard for you to see

you're caught between just who you are

and who you want to be

if you feel alone and lost and need a friend

remember every new beginning

is some beginning's end

welcome to wherever you are

this is your life; you made it this far

welcome, you got to believe

that right here, right now

you're exactly where you're supposed to be

welcome to wherever you are

when everybody's in and you're left out

and you feel you're drowning

in the shadow of a doubt

everyone's a miracle in their own way

just listen to yourself

not what other people say

when it seems you're lost,

alone and feeling down

remember, everybody's different;

just take a look

be who you want to be, be who you are

everyone's a hero, everyone's a star

when you want to give up

and your heart's about to break

remember that you're perfect;

god makes no mistakes.

"remember every new beginning
is some beginning's end".

and i choose to believe it.

today was the first time

i thought about him in a long while.

suddenly it came back.

i don't know how i feel,

i don't know what to feel.

life goes on.

yeah, maybe it does.

but as michelle puts it,

and i totally agree with it,

"nothing last forever only if

you don't remember with your heart".

i don't want to think about it.

i don't want to think about you.

i don't want to think about us.

i don't want to see you.

i don't want to talk to you.

i guess sometimes

the past hurts.

during ms k's lecture today

on catharsis in king lear,

she said:

"memory generates pain".

and it's true.

damn it.

and i thought i was over it.

i know i'm over it!

damn it!

but my girls and a106,

the fun times we share,

the laughter, the tears,

the talks, the sorang-moments,

the dumb jokes, the gossips,

the lingo, the love.

i swear i'm so going to miss mj.

miss the environment.

miss the school.

miss the fun.

miss the friends.

miss the memories.

i just pray so damn hard

that our friendships will last.

...with love...

remember me this way//*

theGIRL.
vanessa
hotelier
twenty-one
11 april
aries
ecole hôtelière de lausanne

currently in: singapore

sheLOVES.
god
mjc.05a106
family
netball
friends
sports
kemsters
goodstuffs
shss.netballers
shss.4a'04
orange
purple
lime green
mini coopers
fireworks
sunsets
the beach
mahjong
london cabs
passion
life

thePAST.
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
August 2008
November 2008
December 2008

herDREAMS.
#1 ~~ecole hôtelière de lausanne.~~
#2 custody.
#3 ~~play division one netball.~~
#4 hotel manager.
#5 a healed knee.
#6 ~~sweet friends.~~
#7 ~~good grades.~~
#8 happy family.
#9 ~~driving license.~~
#10 speak fluent french.
#11 ~~mini~~ cooper.
#12 ~~nice watch.~~
#13 ~~functioning computer.~~
#14 drive to thailand.
#15 decorate my room.
#16 travel the world.
#17 ~~sweet memories.~~
#18 ~~true love.~~

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