108 days to the
first paper of the a's.
that's only 15 weeks.
and that's the a's.
not even prelims.
don't even dare to
think about it.
i'm scared.
suddenly.
but i haven't done anything.
bummed my whole
weekend away.
gossiping in town with saf.
beaching at sentosa
with my family.
i think this better be the
last weekend i'm slacking.
i better start mugging.
i better...
sighhh.
i know that won't last.
but i really really really
want to go to lausanne.
they sent me the brochure
and foo-yo! i'm motivated!
yays!
from tomorrow,
i'm going to mug.
and mug.
and mug.
you're going to motivate me,
and stop demoralising me.
i'm going to lausanne.
i'm going to find my rainbow.
(:
focus on the goal neh.
suddenly i'm scared.
scared i won't be able to make it.
to lausanne.
scared, 'cos all the things they say,
that i can't do it and all,
could probably be true.
i'm scared.
and there's a void inside me.
and it sucks.
urgh.
i don't know what to feel.
it hurts.
kind of.
it's like a gnawing pain.
and i feel empty.
too many things going through my mind.
i want the a's to be over.
i have soooo many things in mind.
and it's obstructing my goal.
i'm need to make it.
i NEED to do it.
and i can do it.
someone please convince me.
sigh.