//* sheer happiness in the million little things.

`never give up on the things
that make you smile.

((:

herFRIENDS.
michelle
lisa
melissa
jkhoo
tanjiali
safiah
azlyn
andi
muslim
mygirls'shop
my friendster

herTHOUGHTS.
...before we get too old...

in open fields of wild flowers
she breathes the air and flies away
she thanks her jesus
for the daises and the roses
in no simple language
someday she'll understand
the meaning of it all
he's more than the laughter
or the stars in the heavens
as close a heartbeat
or a song on her lips
someday she'll trust him
and learn how to see him
someday he'll call her
and she will come running
and fall in his arms
and the tears will fall down and she'll pray
i want to fall in love with you.

jesus take the wheel
take it from my hands
'cos i can't do this on my own
i'm letting go
so give me one more chance
save me from this road i'm on
jesus take the wheel.

when you want to give up
and your heart's about to break
remember that you're perfect
god makes no mistakes.

we're running, keep holding my hand
so we don't get separated
be the one i need
be the one i trust most
don't stop inspiring me.

lately i've been down upon my knees
not looking for a miracle
just a reason to believe.

i'm feeling nervous
trying to be so perfect
'cos i know you're worth it.

you always want what you can't have
but i've got to try.

i've finally found that something
worth reaching for
i'm not here to say i'm sorry
i'm not here to lie to you
i'm here to say i'm ready
that i've finally thought it through
i'm not here to let your love go
i'm not giving up, oh no
i'm here to win your heart and soul
that's my goal
please don't go
you know that i need you
i can't breathe without you
live without you
be without you.

on my knees, i'll ask
last chance for one last dance
'cos with you, i'd withstand
all of hell to hold your hand
i'd give it all
i'd give for us
give anything but i won't give up.

if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world?
i don't quite know
how to say
how i feel
those three words
are said too much
they're not enough.

you can call me selfish
but all i want is your love
you can call me hopeless
'cos i'm hopelessly in love
you can call me unperfect
but who's perfect?
tell me what do i got to do
to prove that i'm the only one for you.

i don't believe that anybody
feels the way i do about you now
there are many things that
i would like to say to you
but i don't know how.

you know i'm the one that you can talk to
sometimes you tell me things
that i don't want to know
i just want to hold you
you say exactly how you feel about her
i wonder could you ever think of me that way.

you and i walk beside each other
day after day
but there's so much inside me
i never get to say.

i want to know that
you will catch me when i fall.

i saw you smile
and my mind could not erase
the beauty of your face
just for a while
won't you let me shelter you
i don't know how to stop feeling this way
hold on to the night
hold on to the memory
i wish that i could give you something more
that i could be yours.

as we go on, we remember
all the times we had together
and as our lives change
come whatever
we will still be
friends forever.

when there are lines upon my face
from a lifetime of smiles
and when the time comes to embrace
for one long last while
we can laugh about how time really flies
we won't say goodbye
'cos true love never dies
and my only prayer is that you'll realise
you'll always be beautiful in my eyes.

do you ever think of me
do i ever cross your mind
do you ever ask yourself
what's she doing tonight?

gather moments while you may
collect the dreams you dream today
remember, will you remember
the times of your life.

sometimes i feel like crying
lay down and dying
that's when i need you.

there's no difference
between the tear drops and the rain.

and if i could hold on
through the tears and the laughter
would it be beautiful
or just a beautiful disaster.

(to her*)
fly me up to where you are
beyond the distant star
i wish upon tonight
to see you smile
if only for awhile
to know you're there
a breath away's not far
to where you are.

when i'm sitting all alone in my room
everything reminds me of you.

so come on baby let me be the girl
that you can count on to rock your world.

do you realise that you have
the most beautiful things
do you realise that
happiness makes you cry.

and this is my beautiful life
only thing's certain is everything changes
the lows and the highs
and all those goodbyes
as hard as it gets i know it's still amazing
to be alive
it's a beautiful life. :)

Sunday, June 18, 2006

10:33 PM

I LOVE MY BEST BUDS

TO THE TINIEST BIIIITS!

((:

whoots!

they came for the crepe party

at my place yesterday

and we had a whole lot of fun

making crepes,

destroying crepes,

making home-made videos,

watching soccer,

yelling and screaming

and scaring ourselves

when the bloody ghana

was about to score yet another goal.

czech can just go die.

with me.

hahahaha!

i'm so pissed.

and disappointed.

and heart-wrenched.

but twenty-four

and the heart-to-heart talk

that we had while watching the sun rise

outside my curtainless window

definitely cheered me up

and the memories just came

flooding back.

beautiful memories.

sigh.

i miss them all.

and i don't want this to end.

i wish time would just stop.

and that we could hang out every day.

and stop betting soccer.

and stop losing money together.

hahaha!

in fact, i haven't been studying much

since wednesday when i went out

with the best buds.

i don't know what in the

freaking world i'm doing with my life.

my mids are in a week

and i'm having the time of my life

with the best buds.

not that i don't enjoy it...

i do, i really really really do.

i never had this much fun in months.

it's amazing, really.

and i pray that this will never end.

buttt...

darn the bloody studies.

i hate it.

it drags me down.

baddd.

i think i'm going to screw up my mids.

reallll badddd.

actually, don't need to think.

i'm SURE i'm going to screw up my mids.

what in the world happened

to my motivation for the scholarship?!

gooooood question.

i have nooooo idea what my answer is.

darned.

screw this.

i can't wait for thursday.

going to johan's house to play mahjong,

and cards, and watch soccer! ((:

omg. another "time of my life" moment.

brilliant.

and did somebody not tell me that

i'm going to screw my mids up?!

sheesh.

i just miss the guys.

plus i haven't seen them the whole holiday!

aww come on!

i deserve it!

hahaha.

whatever to myself.

this is just going to get from bad to worse.

just like betting on freaking f-ed up soccer.

sheesh.

but but but...

I LOVE MY BEST BUDS TO BITS!

*gillian.haziq.puiser.weehou.sandesh.vanessa*

this is love.

remember me this way//*

theGIRL.
vanessa
hotelier
twenty-one
11 april
aries
ecole hôtelière de lausanne

currently in: singapore

sheLOVES.
god
mjc.05a106
family
netball
friends
sports
kemsters
goodstuffs
shss.netballers
shss.4a'04
orange
purple
lime green
mini coopers
fireworks
sunsets
the beach
mahjong
london cabs
passion
life

thePAST.
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
August 2008
November 2008
December 2008

herDREAMS.
#1 ~~ecole hôtelière de lausanne.~~
#2 custody.
#3 ~~play division one netball.~~
#4 hotel manager.
#5 a healed knee.
#6 ~~sweet friends.~~
#7 ~~good grades.~~
#8 happy family.
#9 ~~driving license.~~
#10 speak fluent french.
#11 ~~mini~~ cooper.
#12 ~~nice watch.~~
#13 ~~functioning computer.~~
#14 drive to thailand.
#15 decorate my room.
#16 travel the world.
#17 ~~sweet memories.~~
#18 ~~true love.~~

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