//* sheer happiness in the million little things.

Friday, March 31, 2006

1:31 PM

f-ed up life.

no one understands.

no one cares anyway.

oh wells.

life's like that.

screwed up.

brilliant.

happy birthday yanqing!

glad you had a blast! (:

remember me this way//*

Thursday, March 30, 2006

2:50 PM

life is just so screwed up.

darn.

the motivation's dying out.

and i'm drained out.

i hate everything.

someone please save me

before it's too late.

zhiyu, johan and wee hou are love.

remember me this way//*

Tuesday, March 28, 2006

2:47 PM

i need to practice my shots!

totally suckkk. ):

muggers addict!

i'm going to get my c soooooon.

screw the block tests.

HAHAHA!

darn. )):

remember me this way//*

Monday, March 27, 2006

9:50 AM

imagine me and you

i do

i think about you day and night

it's only right

to think about the girl you love

and hold her tight

so happy together

if I should call you up

invest a dime

and you'd say you belong to me

i'd lose my mind

imagine how the world could be

so very fine

so happy together

i can't see me loving

nobody but you

for all my life

when you're with me

baby the skies will be blue

for all my life

me and you

and you and me

no matter how they toss the dice

it has to be

the only one for me is you

and you for me

so happy together. :))

i read demand and supply.

i just realised that

there's alot more to studying

a chapter than just reading

the lecture notes.

sigh.

oh wells.

i hope to get my life

back on track.

soooooooon...

studies: my number one priority.

remember me this way//*

Sunday, March 26, 2006

1:06 PM

ooorrrrrrrrrr. ((:

17.91 seconds.

i'm proud to have the bestest

of the bestest

of the best

until cannot best already. :)

thank you for EVERYTHING.

i mean it.

remember me this way//*

Saturday, March 25, 2006

4:11 PM

i'm motivated. :)

... just don't forget

to pick me up when i've fallen down

and to give me that extra push

when i've fallen behind.

thanks ALOT.

bestest bestest bestest bestest

until cannot best already.

you rock. ((:

remember me this way//*

Friday, March 24, 2006

2:45 PM

okayyy.

so reality's sunk in.

the triple f's.

now how am i going

to prepare my dad

to meet the principal.

oh so brilliant.

and i'm sorry

for being an ap, gp disappointment.

i need math tuition!

and i need it fast...

sigh.

this totally sucks.

how in the world

am i going to do well for my a's?!

freak!

i know i'm screwed.

(thanks alot bae.)

oh wells.

what's new eh?

it's either the studies

or netball.

oh what a brilliant life. ((:

sighhh.

remember me this way//*

3:35 AM

stay with me

don't fall asleep too soon

the angels can wait

for a moment

come real close

forget the world outside

tonight we're alone

it's finally you and i

it wasnt meant to feel like this

not without you

'cos when i look at my life

how the pieces fall into place

it just wouldn't rhyme

without you

when i see how my path

seems to end up before your face

the state of my heart

the place where we are

is written in the stars

don't be afraid

i'll be right by your side

through the laughter and pain

together we're bound to fly

i wasn't meant to love like this

not without you

made a few mistakes

like sometimes we do

been through lot of heartache

but i made it back to you

and it wasn't meant to be like this...

not without you.

i'm freaking screwed

for the darned block tests.

shall be heading to see the principal

for my triple f's.

someone tell me how screwed i am.

urghhh.

i hate this.

remember me this way//*

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

1:05 PM

suddenly, the triple f's

are becoming a reality.

oh wells.

i deserve it, i know.

and i'm going to get screwed for it.

urghhh.

darned block tests. ):

promise

break down

i can't take this

i need somewhere to go

i need you

i'm so restless

i don't know what to do

'cos we've had our rough times

with fighting all night

and now you're just slipping away

so give me this chance

to make the wrongs right, to say:

don't, don't, don't walk away

i promise

i won't let you down

if you take my hand tonight

i promise

we'll be just fine, this time

if you take my hand tonight

without you i go through the motions

without you it's just not quite the same

without you I don't want to go out

i just wanted to say

that i'm sick of these fights

i'll let you be right

if it stops you from running away

don't don't don't walk away.

'cos i need you here with me

every single step of the way. :)

urgh. back to math.

studying sucks. period.

remember me this way//*

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

7:05 AM

ninety miles outside chicago

can't stop driving

i don't know why

so many questions

i need an answer

two years later

you're still on my mind

whatever happen to amelia earheart

who holds the stars up in the sky?

is true love just once in a lifetime?

did the captain of the titanic cry?

someday we'll know

if love can move a mountain

someday we'll know

why the sky is blue

someday we'll know

why i wasn't meant for you

does anybody know the way to atlantis?

or what the wind says when she cries?

i'm speeding by the place that i met you

for ninety seventh time tonight

someday we'll know

why samson loved delilah

one day i'll go

dancing on the moon

someday you'll know

that i was the one for you

i bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow

and watched the stars crash in the sea

if i could ask god just one question

why aren't you here with me?

-someday we'll know...

i just wish and hope and pray

that that someday comes, someday...

remember me this way//*

Monday, March 20, 2006

3:00 PM

no no no.

we shall not talk about schoolwork...

triple f's are inching nearer and nearer.

darned block tests! ):

spent forever on the phone with johan.

and i've decided to clear things up

after the block tests.

once and for all.

i hope it does more good than harm.

dear god, give me courage.

sigh. for now...

studies is my number one priority.

although it's obviously

not the most successful thing

in my life right now.

triple f's...

you're a disappoiontment, neh.

remember me this way//*

Sunday, March 19, 2006

2:38 AM

today, i am going to finish

theory of income and employment.

plus the ten year series questions.

and read measure for measure

till act two.

(yesss. i know i'm that slow.)

and get my lit notes in order.

bet i won't even complete

a quarter of the things on my list.

oh wells.

hahahaha.

BIG dreams...

... and everything

reminds me of you.

remember me this way//*

Saturday, March 18, 2006

4:22 PM

goodbye to you

goodbye to everything

that i knew.

let go or wait?

remember me this way//*

3:09 PM

when we're eighty

and playing mahjong.

my loves. (:

remember me this way//*

Friday, March 17, 2006

2:36 PM

do you see me

do you feel me like i feel you

call your number

but i cannot get through

you don't hear me

and i don't understand

when i reach out

i don't find your hand

were they wasted words

and did they mean a thing

and all that precious time

but i still feel so in between

somedays, i just keep pretending

that you'll stay

dreaming of a different ending

i wanna hold on

but it hurts so bad

and i can't keep something that i never had

i keep telling myself

things can turn around with time

and if i wait it out

you could always change your mind

like a fairy tale

where it works out in the end

can i close my eyes

have you lying here again

then i come back down

then i fade back in

then i realize it's just what might have been

am i a shadow on your wall

am i anything at all

anything to you

am i a secret that you keep

do you dream me while you're sleeping

after all

someday, maybe you'll understand

why i feel this way.

maybe, someday,

you'll feel the same way too.

maybe...

remember me this way//*

Thursday, March 16, 2006

2:47 PM

why does everything tell me

that it doesn't mean a thing to you?

can't you see?!

remember me this way//*

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

1:56 PM

i learnt ap and gp...

finally.

thanks to zhiyu. ((:

and i sprained my little finger.

okay, so it's not so little.

but that's sooooo not the point.

it's swollen.

and awkward.

and it hurts. ):

remember me this way//*

Monday, March 13, 2006

7:00 AM

and i just want you to know

that i've been fighting to let you go

some days i'll make it through

and then there's nights that never end

i wish that i could believe

that there's a day you'll come back to me

but still i have to say

that i would do it all again

i just want you to know

that since i lost you

i lost myself

no i can't fake it

there's no one else.

remember me this way//*

Sunday, March 12, 2006

1:33 PM

if only you didn't exist.
life would be oh so simple.

'cos you take up my dreams.
and you eat up my life.
and you left me to guess.

and you make me sad.
and you leave me all lost.

maybe i love you too much.
can't you see?

remember me this way//*

Thursday, March 09, 2006

3:02 PM

i hung out!

momories revived! :)

anyways...

i just realised that

it's only eleven more days

to the block tests.

omg. )):

how in the world

am i going to squeeze

all the required topics

from jc1's work especially

into my tiny brain.

someone help me, pleaseeee.

oh wells.

i shall study hard.

HAHAHA.

good joke!

urgh. ):

block testsss.

remember me this way//*

Wednesday, March 08, 2006

3:19 PM

oh wells.

just felt like quoting today.

coupled with my random thoughts.

so enjoy it. (:

lots of people want to ride

with you in the limo,

but what you want is someone

who will take the bus with you

when the limo breaks down.

(will you still be there?)

laughter is the shortest

distance between two people.

(i miss the laughs.)

courage does not always roar.

sometimes, it is the quiet voice

at the end of the day saying,

"i will try again tomorrow".

(someone motivate me to study hard!)

have you ever wondered

which hurts the most?

saying something

and wishing you hadn't?

or saying nothing

and wishing you had?

(tough choice huh?)

if you love something,

let it go.

if it comes back to you, its yours.

if it doesn't then it never was.

(we'll see if it was ever meant to be.)

how can i say goodbye

to someone i never had?

why do tears fall for someone

who was never mine?

why is it that i miss someone

i was never with?

and i ask why i love someone

who's love was never mine?

(oh wells.)
some people make the world

special by just being in it.

(yes, that's true. 'cos you do.)

brilliant.

that just got me thinking

a whole lot.

urgh.

time to study.

study study study.

someone help meee!

remember me this way//*

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

3:21 PM

my knees are breaking.

oh so brilliant!

remember me this way//*

Monday, March 06, 2006

10:34 AM

the whole world's slowly

inching itself away from me.

with true friends gone,

what's the motivation to carry on?

i miss someone.

i miss our friendship.

i miss the memories.

i miss how we'd always

miraculously be there for each other.

i miss the jokes.

i miss the laughter.

i miss our late night talks.

i miss talking.

i miss those tears we shared.

i miss the smiles that

gave me comfort, somehow.

i miss those awkward moments.

i miss our closeness.

i miss how we'd grow together.

i miss the motivations.

i miss the inspirations.

i miss the fun.

i miss us singing.

i miss the togetherness.

i miss it all.

i miss you.

come back, please.

'cos you're missed.

remember me this way//*

Sunday, March 05, 2006

1:05 PM

someone sang this song to me

and it melt my heart.

not the person though.

hahaha.

just that it brought back

alot of sweet sweet memories.

memories that would

only remain memories.

this is for you.

the one who changed my life.

for a tale of a friendship

that has won and lost.

you complete my life.

thanks. (:

take me to your heart

hiding from the rain and snow

trying to forget but i won't let go

looking at a crowded street

listening to my own heart beat

so many people all around the world

tell me where do i find someone like you girl

take me to your heart, take me to your soul

give me your hand before i'm old

show me what love is - haven't got a clue

show me that wonders can be true

they say nothing lasts forever

we're only here today

love is now or never

bring me far away

take me to your heart, take me to your soul

give me your hand and hold me

show me what love is - be my guiding star

it's easy, take me to your heart

standing on a mountain high

looking at the moon through a clear blue sky

i should go and see some friends

but they don't really comprehend

don't need too much talking

without saying anything

all i need is someone

who makes me wanna sing

remember me this way//*

Saturday, March 04, 2006

4:14 AM

thanks to bae

i'm stuck with doing some

"don't-know-what-you-call-this"

hahaha.

but since i don't do such stuffs often,

once in a while's alright i guess.

thanks to bae,

you are reading this.

tsk. hahaha. :)

THE RULES:

Darken the statements that are true to you.

Italise the statements that you WISH are true.

Leave the fibs alone.

Then, stab 5 people to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.

I dont watch TV these days.

I own lots of books.

I wear glasses or contact lenses.

I love to play video games.

I've tried marijuana.

I have been in a threesome.

I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.

I believe honesty is usually the best policy.

I curse sometimes.

I have changed my mentally alot over the last year.

I carry my knife/razor evrywhere with me.

I'm TOTALLY smart.

I've broken someone's bones.

I'm paranoid sometimes.

I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.

I need money right now.

I love sushi.

I talk really, really fast.

I have long hair.

I have lost money in Las Vegas.

I have at least one sibling.

I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.

I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.

I like the way i look.

I am usually pessimistic.

I have a lot of mood swings.

I have a hidden talent.

I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.

I have a lot of friends.

I am currently single!

I have pecked someone of the same sex.

I enjoy talking on the phone.

I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.

I love to shop.

Enjoy window shopping.

I would rather shop than eat.

I don't hate anyone.

I dislike them.

I'm a pretty good dancer.

I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.

I have a cell phone.

I believe in God.

I watch MTV on a daily basis.

I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.

I've rejected someone before.

I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.

I want to have children in the future.

I have changed a diaper before.

I've called the cops on a friend before.

I'm not allergic to anything.

I have a lot to learn.

I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.

I am shy around the opposite sex.

I have tried alcohol before.

I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.

I own the "South Park" movie.

I would die for my best friends.

I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.

I have used my sexuality to advance my career.

I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.

Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.

I watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.

I have dated a close friend's ex.

I am happy at this moment!

I'm obsessed with guys.

Democrat.

I am punk rockish.

I am preppy.

I study for tests most of the time.

I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.

I can work on a car.

I love my job.

I am comfortable with who I am right now.

I have more than just my ears pierced.

I walk barefoot wherever i can.

I have jumped off a bridge.

I love sea turtles.

I spend ridiculous money on makeup.

Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.

I'm proficient in a musical instrument.

I worked at McDonald's restaurant.

I hate office jobs.

I love sci-fi movies.

I think water rules.

I went college out of state.

I like sausage.

I love kisses.

I fall for the worst people.

I adore bright colours.

I can't live without black eyeliner.

I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.

I usually like covers better than originals.

I can pick up things with my toes.

I can't whistle.

I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.

I have ridden/owned a horse.

I still have every journal I've ever written in.

I can't stick to a diet.

I talk in my sleep.

I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.

Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.

I have jazz in my blood.

I wear a toe ring.

I have a tattoo.

I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.

I am a caffeine junkie.

I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.

I have been to over 15 conventions.

I will collect anything, and the more nonsesical, the better.

I'm an artist.

I only clean my room when necessary.

I like a person of the same sex.

I love being happy.

I am an adrenaline junkie.

i think i'm going to skip

the stab five people part.

for starters,

stabbing's not really nice.

plus i don't even know who reads my blog.

so yeah.

if you want to do it then just go ahead.

but it's a whole lot of junk.

credits to bae.

oh well, enjoy. ((:

remember me this way//*

Friday, March 03, 2006

2:41 PM

I PASSED MY CHINESE!

with a d7!

but that's not the point.

point is:

I PASSED MY CHINESE!

whoohoo!!! ((:

and i'm inspired!

by my meridian seniors.

mjc did superbly well for the a's.

with 86 straight a's!

come on! who can beat that?!

plus we're a new college.

man! i'm definitely proud to be a meridian.

'cos we're...

born of a vision to be the best.

rising above the rest! :)

i'm going to work hard from now.

yes, now.

'cos it's never too early to start.

i'm not going to regret.

i don't see the point in that.

so people, motivate me.

'cos i know i can't do it on my own.

i need you.

every single one of you

to help me complete this race.

let's do this together meridians!

let's do the school proud

the teachers proud

our friends proud

our class proud

our families proud

and let's do ourselves proud.

it's not impossible.

just got to keep running that race

aaaaaalllllll the way to the end

with your friends to support you

through it all

'cos i don't believe that you can do it

on your own.

but we will do it, together, that is.

come on people!

it's the final lap.

and there's no time to waste.

if i'm inspired, you should be too.

jia you fellow friends!

lots of love. ((:

remember me this way//*

theGIRL.
vanessa
hotelier
twenty-one
11 april
aries
ecole hôtelière de lausanne

currently in: singapore

sheLOVES.
god
mjc.05a106
family
netball
friends
sports
kemsters
goodstuffs
shss.netballers
shss.4a'04
orange
purple
lime green
mini coopers
fireworks
sunsets
the beach
mahjong
london cabs
passion
life

thePAST.
November 2005
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January 2006
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March 2006
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August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
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January 2008
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herDREAMS.
#1 ~~ecole hôtelière de lausanne.~~
#2 custody.
#3 ~~play division one netball.~~
#4 hotel manager.
#5 a healed knee.
#6 ~~sweet friends.~~
#7 ~~good grades.~~
#8 happy family.
#9 ~~driving license.~~
#10 speak fluent french.
#11 ~~mini~~ cooper.
#12 ~~nice watch.~~
#13 ~~functioning computer.~~
#14 drive to thailand.
#15 decorate my room.
#16 travel the world.
#17 ~~sweet memories.~~
#18 ~~true love.~~