life seems soooo wrong now. everything seems to be going hay-wired. and it all sucks. there's no one i can turn to anymore, no one i can lean on, no one to be there when the world comes crashing down. the world has, well, kind of disappeared. not literally, but yeah. you get what i mean...

sigh. i've got a whole lot of problems up my sleeve and it makes life alot tougher to live. putting each foot in front of the other now appears to be more of a struggle than before. and it's beginning to hurt me damn bad. i feel like a broken person. b-r-o-k-e-n. yeah. all chopped up and ready to burn. nah. that sounded pretty wrong. haha. but back to what i was saying. it's like, everything that's inside all kind of hurts suddenly. and i'm beginning to hate it.

hate it. hate this life. hate the things that i have to go through. hate my past. hate myself. hate you. hate everything.

gosh. i feel a 'lil better now. but not much. you know, so many things are happening right now that even if someone asked, i won't know where to start. things just kind of, well, build up i guess. and when all these tiny 'lil life problems build up on your shoulders, they tend to turn into enormous burdens that sometimes torture the living daylights out of you. that, is exactly what's happening to me.

yes. i hate it.

i just want someone to be there. i just want you.